this is a continum from the bebo blog =) but before i begin i would like to say :

happy eighteenth rhianna lim !

never got the chance to do it on blog LOLS so sorry about the lateness but it got to you in one way or another . i woudl like to read a poem or story about you liek you did for me .. but i kinda suck at it .. and what the hell rhtyms with rhianna anyways LOLS jokes =P . oh and i think this year was way better than last year . no offence it was still your birthday =) but least this year you didnt cry =) wels not that i know of ?

okays so let me begin ahahahah gosh i feel like im full bragging ! but liek if i did this over msn it would be simple . ill just tell you what happen and so . but no seeing that im blogging im going to blog the whole day out for your own entertainment and enjoyment LOLS

so woked at 630 . quickly got ready dad drove me to like the train station . FUCK WAS TODAY FUCKEN COLD ! and i was wearing jeans and woolen jacket ! FUCK IT WAS COLD , when i was walking home my fingers were stiffed hard ! ahahhahaha i know how is it when a boy gets a stiffy downstair LOLS jokes !

anyways , so got there liek 645 and turn out 655 there was a train >.> phew lucky i was early .. cause the next one was at like 730 >.> its like what happened to the 700 ! train .. but anyways i hesistated on going on LOLS case i didnt wanna get on the wrong train LIEK YOU =P

omg skip all that its not important LOLS got there an hour early . waited for tutorial than did my 6hours straight lectures . until the very last one =) so i was in my social science and policy class . dont ask me wtf it is cause i dunoes and its so gay ! but yeah i was sitting at the front =) and liek this lecture isnt really a lecture cause the lecture is online this was more of a tutorial kinda thing . and we need to discuss with people around us and bro theres like 200ish people in that treather . but anyways so yeah talk to the chick next to me . and she talked to this guy behind us .. i turn around and boy ! ahhahahaha i dunoes .. im not going to say his cute . cause when i think of cute i think of girlly cute . but his "lookable" =) .. or to put it in a better way ! my TYPE =) i can SO IMAGINE HIM BEING MY BF =) LOLS and i did =) LOLS

his got a great dress sense =) even look down to check out his shoes =) got clean nails LOLS a normal face =) asian too ! yes .. i checked him out whenever i had the chance LOLS after all i was sitting in front of him .. man i hope he didnt notice that i was like looking and checking him out =( but yeah .. and like i said we were like grathering and discussing . and so these other guys sat next to him , man they make him look so small LOLS but yeah the guy next to him . gosh HAHAHAHA like i really like the asian and its cute hows his small next to his "non-asian" but yeah the non asian was good looking too =) and i swear he probably gives out the protection vibe . if you know what i mean ! but i still have my eyes on the asian! omg and i didnt even get any names =( and ill never see him again =( =( and he probably has a gf =( =( =( heart break !

GOSH I WISH I WAS LIEK HOTTER AND SHIT !!!! and not a FOUR EYE FREAK TOO =( =( oh man !!! to think if i was hot i could have him in my hands right now MWAHHAHAHAH oh and confidence >.>

so on my bus ride home =) i was like trying to remember his face cause liek i know i woudl forget anyways .. and right now ? im not sure if i even remeber but i remember what he wore LOLS thats a start ?!

so got to centre station and liek catch the train . full packed and shit rush hour . and yeah sqeezed myself in and just stood there hugging the pole for stayability ! and there was these two boys . i think they were vsing each other soduku? and so i did it too . yeah the asian one was kinda good looking? im not sure too scare to look to much .. in case people notice or he notice . cause OMG last time at work , woolies i was staring at the police man . cause last time i came across a man whom i think is a police man and he was liek a total bitch and shit . so that time i was staring at this poclice man trying to remember was it him ? .. and next thing you know when i call up for the next customer .. a old man . his like you like him ayes , i saw you watching him >.> OMG AHAHAAH NO !!!! ahaha how embrassing .. so yeah

yeah but i lost this guy when i got off at fairfield . went big ws for the psp game and i got it . last time so the case is liek full scratched and it wasnt what i really really wanted ? but stlil good . afterwards got back on train and liek catch the ride home . and it end it well =) lucky day i may say ! i saw peter across the street at his shop ahahhaha =) i wonder if he saw me ? if he did .. i wonder was he looking at me ? cause if he was =) =) he notice me ! but i still like the lecture boy =) =) whom ill never see again . so after today im thinking .. why wait your time over one person . when i still have the world out there , for me to find the perfect boy . AHAHAHAHAH CAUSE I FOUND 3 TODAY BRO =) LOLS

so yeah thats the news i wanted to tell you LOLS AHAHAHHAHAHA

GRRR ! i dunoes but im so pist lately . first pist at mum family the world . and to think im like pass the pist off period . everything is settled down back to normal and shit . but no ! and fuck i regret being pist in the first place .but i wasnt just pist i was sad too you know . i fucken cryed myself to sleep and shit . and why ! cause im fucken here . ive made life hard for my mum and myself !

never in my life have i been pist off at my mum for liek a week . maybe i have but i dont remember . im a very forgiving person . as you can see ive forgiven her and shit . but yeah , so been pist havent been eating locking myself in my room not talking to no body chucking trantrums and everybody at home . but yeah ! now im okays , coming out doing the dishes and shit . i believe my mums doing what i did ! shes now probably pist off at me . wels i cant help it when i think about it ! its just everything . but your my mum .. omg

i have it . i cant blog this shit . makes me fucken teary and fuck this . nothing makes it better >=(

whoa what a beautiful day , like so many other beautiful days which has pass me by in my whole lifetime ! wels where am i on such a beautiful day ?! one thing reminds the same and thats stuck at fucken home !! all morning ive been waiting , wanting , hoping someone would call , call so i can fucken go out ! anywhere but here !

its liek being in a prison ! but im sure a prison would be way better than being here . im sure they have abit more freedom than i do . least they can go outside get some fresh air and liek do excerise and shit . me ? im just in my room ! bring at home is just to depressing ..

anyways sorry to like brag and all . but as you can see im at home with nothing better to do , so i just blogging .. but theres not much to blog about .. sorry to waste yoru time . ta

at times , and i know im currently experiencing the time of the month but sriously at times ! i jsut wanna move out and ive been thinking about it all day ! being in this household is like a priosn ! liek fuck , restricted with so much shit ! firstly , i cant go out when ever i want ! now that mums back form china . when ever i wanna go out i have to ask and tell her . liek fuck this shit ! dont let me out , i only even bother to ask you cause yoru my mum and i fucken respect you ! unlike others they probably dont ask and shit and just go out !

one day with the courage im just gonna walk out of this house and not even say anything . to come home late at night , and i than i wouldnt even bring my mob so you cant contact me ! you can worry all you like ! who do you think i am ?! im fucken 18 now ! i think i can look out for myself and more over if you think im going to turn bad and shit ! dont you think i woudl of became gstar and shit a long time ago ?! fuck for heaven sake i live in cabra !

2ndly im restricted through being allow to drive the car ! if i didnt have my dad whose so insecured and stuff i could of drive the car when ever i liek . yeah im scared and shit but i have my ps ! least have some fault in me !! now that im not driving im losing everything ive learnt ! and probably when , one day which woudl be liek never , when i do get to drive the freaken car ! youll probably be by my side going off saying this shit and that !

i know my parents to well and i never misjudge them ! ive spend fucken 18 years plus of my life with them ! thinking about all the bad shits my parents have put me thgough i hate them !

and babes like fucken pist at me . and i got bad cramps ! and i have so much fucken uni work , i jusst dont wanna do it !

all day i havent done nothing , im boycotting from the dishes ! they can fucken wash the dishes i aint doing it no more . only did it cause i dont wanan let my mum or dad do it . omg im not even gonna talk or think about them anymore . they just pist me off more !

on happy-er thoughts .. cause i never blog about the happy shits . btu thers none so far . so another time .